[수필3] 당신이 오빠가 되어

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A daughter like a son, a son like a daughter. So did my family. If I could change it, I wanted to change the gari bones and dark skin of the content to my younger brother’s white and white skin. Although the age difference was only two years old, the older sister, who had a loud voice, controlled her obedient brother. My younger brother can’t even speak properly in public, but how intrusive is my older sister? The younger brother hid behind such an older sister and tried to hide his embarrassment. My brother always needed my protection, both by force and by force. It happened when I was in the fourth grade of elementary school and my younger brother was in the first grade of elementary school. Just as I was about to leave the school gate to go home with my younger brother, an aunt in Imwol stopped my younger brother, saying, “You’re a pair of ㅇㅇペア, aren’t you?” Then I took him to one of the playgrounds. I followed him to find out what this meant, and he told me not to bully my partner. How could an aunt, who doesn’t know whether she’s a mother or an aunt, threaten a boy (who might have been 20 years younger than her) instead of a girl? It was too much of a disadvantage. I thought I’d get my brother out of this situation as soon as possible. “Let’s go home!” he drew his brother close. quiet and quiet. Wherever he went, he was beaten by a rough friend. Every time I did that, I was frustrated and angry with my brother. I should have jumped at him, ripped him off, dried him, and protected him from having fewer younger brothers, but it hurts my heart that I couldn’t. I had to say this confidently on this day as well. “Auntie, why can’t the girl solve her own business and get an aunt?” I still resent not being able to do so. It was one winter night when I was in my early twenties. A drunken man in front of the door of the house was knocking recklessly at the gate even though he came home late. I couldn’t get into the house, so I was stepping on my clogs. My younger brother just showed up. “What are you doing here without going in?” I pointed to the man. Seeing the drunken man, the younger brother straddled toward the gate without fear. I suddenly got scared. “What’s the matter?” “What if a man comes?” The younger brother caught the drunk man with one hand and stood him close to the wall. “What are you doing here?” This is not your house. Hurry up and go home,” the man spat out an unintelligible remark. My brother told me to keep standing on the wall and go home so that the man wouldn’t be able to move. The man, who had been so subdued for some time, had, perhaps, found himself on his way. Was good。 From that day on, I met my younger brother again. His fair skin remained the same, but he was brave and powerful enough to deal with drunkards, and he thought he could not have done any more. It was really strange to be an older sister who was protected by her younger brother. You’re all grown up now. It’s Jasik. As the days passed and the years passed, my younger brother seemed to grow bigger and bigger, and his position in the family changed. My younger brother’s position was renewed when I announced that I would study in the United States. The atmosphere in the house was quite cold because of my provocation. In particular, her mother’s opposition was fierce. My mother’s back made me thirsty day by day. If you were going to study abroad when it was inconvenient for you, it would be pathetic for anyone to see that the eldest daughter, who has to prepare herself early on, is only thinking about herself. the day of a significant family meeting to decide whether to remove the roots of the pillars. He released his one-year budget plan and waited for his family’s decision. “I wish I could go,” When my father came out first, my brother took over the baton. “Mom, let your sister do what she wants. I wouldn’t have hesitated so much if I had let him do whatever he wanted from the time he chose his major in college. If I stop this time, I may return to my life. I’ll take responsibility for the rest.” Why did the parents and children get along so well? Was there a simulation beforehand? I couldn’t realize that this was a reality. That day, my father threw a ball and shook his brother’s bat. It was a home run. When my sister asked me to back up what I wanted to do, did my brother have any idea what he needed from now on? The younger brother proposed to his parents to join the family in order to take responsibility for what happened after removing the root of the pillar. There was enough justification for reducing spending economically and for parents to take care of their two young nephews. My younger brother took good care of my parents and me with clenched teeth because my eldest daughter, who is supposed to be the capital of the household, was spending a lot of money and the dollar exchange rate was very high after the 2008 financial crisis. To make matters worse, things that had not been at home since the year I went to the U.S. exploded. My father, who had been healthy, injured his back at work and operated on it, found polyps during medical examinations, removed them, and implanted them in his teeth. This kind of thing was just the beginning. Then, the whole family panicked due to the news of Olke’s cancer diagnosis. The younger brother shifted the weight of his role from his son to his husband and worked hard to ensure that his wife could safely endure the surgery and treatment process. He had to protect his father’s seat for his two young daughters, who knew that their mother was sick. Such a series of dominoes ended with his father’s call to heaven. On the road that my younger brother walked for four years, there were clear marks that were deeply pressed by the weight of his life. My younger brother’s house suddenly left Seoul and went to Daegu. I said I’m going to Daegu because something good happened. Less than a year later, when it was just settled, COVID-19 spread from Daegu to the whole country, making it quite difficult for my younger brother to do it. The stress that my younger brother, who works in the hospital, suffers from tension and pressure every day, was unusual. Now that I see it, my younger brother moved to Daegu, it was all planned. The younger brother was the talker of his uncle, who usually had a chronic disease, and the comfort of his aunt, who was tired from nursing. The real big picture was the head of the family grave at my parents’ house. All the adults in the house said that the graves of their ancestors, which had been scattered here and there for future generations, should be moved and collected in one place, but no one came out easily because of the economic cost burden. At this time, his younger brother, who appeared in Daegu, was the savior of his family. He played the role of an adult in the family, including distant relatives who did not know the number of villages. My uncle, who had longed for it but wondered if such a thing would happen in his lifetime, decided on a suitable place with this shoji. and, perhaps thinking that he had already done everything he had to do, he was called to heaven after a while, and where he had chosen his parents, a daughter like a son, a son like a daughter. So did my family. If I could change it, I wanted to change the gari bones and dark skin of the content to my younger brother’s white and white skin. Although the age difference was only two years old, the older sister, who had a loud voice, controlled her obedient brother. My younger brother can’t even speak properly in public, but how intrusive is my older sister? The younger brother hid behind such an older sister and tried to hide his embarrassment. My brother always needed my protection, both by force and by force. It happened when I was in the fourth grade of elementary school and my younger brother was in the first grade of elementary school. Just as I was about to leave the school gate to go home with my younger brother, an aunt in Imwol stopped my younger brother, saying, “You’re a pair of ㅇㅇペア, aren’t you?” Then I took him to one of the playgrounds. I was wondering what this meant, so I followed him,

 

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